On “Letting Go” and Saying NO

FACEBOOK’s “On This Day” special feature today is a “ready to blog” piece and because of my pronouncement in the past that I will transfer one by one to this personal blog of mine all of my written works of old, I am sharing, herewith, the Status Post:

July 27, 2014 ·

My sleeping pattern is still erratic but since my psychiatrist increased the frequency of one of my tablets, I am now able to sleep, uninterruptedly, for 6 to 8 hours the most, in a day. I used to stay awake up to 21 hours straight and even if I felt tired, my back especially, and my eyes were droopy, sleep was always elusive. Am also now learning to follow a simple routine of daily activities, slowly eliminating, one by one, those which are extras to my already over-burdened life.

It is never easy, of course, especially the “letting go” part because, for one, my conscience tells me otherwise and the other reason is that I have always been following my God’s bidding of helping the downtrodden and I already reached over half a decade of my life and if, indeed, I need to change, should I do something contrary to what I have been brought up and taught and shown, by example, in helping people? Which, I know, for a fact, is something GOOD? In my mind, you change something which is bad, ta?

I do realize that I cannot help everybody, as my dear Waleed has always been emphasizing. Impossible, of course, especially if you think of people in terms of their number! For this reason that I have only been helping AS MUCH as I could, but lately, because of miscalculations and mismanagement of my financial resources, I reached a point where there was nothing more to give extra to the people immediately surrounding me!

In time, in Allah’s time, I will recover, and lessons learned from this latest debacle, I will try as much to do away from committing. This has always been my problem – refusing to admit that I can’t help at the moment, so I commit, thinking that God will show me a way. And still am struggling how to say NO, although I have pronounced, in the past, that I finally learned how to say NO! I believe though that this is something which I cannot really learn completely. From now on, I will only say NO if there is nothing more to give!

But because I am a very giving person – I was brought up like this – saying NO, completely, is a no-no for me!

Let me end this by quoting some lines from one of my blog stories:

I wish that you would all “see” God and “feel” God as I do. Believe me, you will never feel alone and in need of material things. God will make you to just give and give of yourself, of your talents and gifts and your material possessions. Yet when you give all out, you won’t feel empty-handed. In fact you will feel full and fulfilled as God is always with you. His spirit fills your body.”

About Author

Freda Editha O. Contreras
Writing is a God-given talent which I try to utilize the good way. I used it as a means to earn a living, my very first job after graduating from college, when I got hired as an Information Writer by the Provincial Government of Antique through Governor Enrique A. Zaldivar in January 1982. By profession, I am a Registered Nurse, and was only able to practice it when I got recruited to work in a private hospital in Kuwait. This was in November 1987 and since then I have been living in Kuwait, now retired since June 2002. Because of my knack in writing I got hired in 1994 to write for Kuwait Times and later became an Editor of 'Pinoy News' a weekly supplement of KT. In March 1996 I published the very first independent Filipino newspaper in Kuwait and the Gulf bannered as Pinoy Expat News or PEN. The paper lasted for only 10 weekly issues. This was followed by another publication and came out first as an insert of an ad paper and later as a separate tabloid. I used then 'Pinoy News' as it was my idea the first time it was used for Kuwait Times. This again failed and produced only three weekly issues. I then turned to the Internet and in 1999 I got hired as a Contributing Editor of Suite101.com, a writers' portal on the web. The last of my articles was published December 31, 2002 but my topic 'Overseas Filipino Workers' was still visible until January 2006. All the 38 articles I wrote have been compiled into a book which I published in August 2007. I discovered blogging in 2006 but was not really serious about my writing. I wrote according to my whim. Having this blog under my own domain name is now a welcome development and I plan to concentrate again in writing. As is commonly said: "A writer will always be a writer." http://fredacontreras.com/

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